Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Woman


I’ve looked in the mirror and have seen manyfaces. 

Sometimes my eyes were a chocolate brown and other timea clear shade of honey.

My hair has changed, from long to short, with bangs orslicked back.

My outfits have evolved; from flannel pj’s to a low cutblouse.

My lips have been red, pink, nude or glossed.

My eyes have sometimes looked straight into me, whileother moments a blur has appeared.

Some days I look and see that young girl that believedin the illusion and fantasies of life …

While other days I see the life that has lived withinme. The amount of suffering my heart has ached.

Nights have shown the laughter and the glee that I havefelt.

The excitement of meeting the love of your life, or theperfect evening with amazing friends.

Mornings can reflect the long night or even the gift ofa new brand new day.

After all the reflections I have been able to see, Ifeel one element has always been the same…

The woman in me is alive and thriving, even when themess is so eloquently splattered.

She lives and breathes every breath inside.

She understands the beauty of the aches, the illusionsthat we create.

She is there behind my hazel eyes in times when theywant to turn blue.

She comprehends the pains, the struggles and the helpsme fight the good fight.

I’m neither one reflection nor the other; I’m all ofthem, on every single day.

I am not defined by the darkness, but rather the lightthat sparkles from deep inside.

My worth is valued not by a man, nor a career; or evenmy past.

 It is knowing that I can be all, and none of thosethings; some days all at once.

 She is Me, and I am Her.

 Now that is truly a sight.



Written by Marisol Graciela

Evolution


Once it happens

It is too late to go back
It is like an earthquake

All the planning- yet never truly prepared

You cry

You sleep

Only to wake up to feel it all over again

You pray for silence

You wish it would die


You wash your past with vodka and wine

You question whether you could be that girl, once again


Lovers come back

You begin to question the remains
You turn right- you look left

You end up at the opposite side

When change appears

When the lights shine bright

It is hard to remember the darkness inside


A new pair of lips

A new kind of peace

The way he listens, when you speak

His hand gently on your hips

It is amazing how you forget the simplest things


The most beautiful changes are those least expected

When all you need is a glimpse of life
It shines so bright

So lovely- indeed


It is hard not to feel blessed
So happy inside

An evolution has brightened its colors into the soul
It lives so beautifully in my core

I can’t help but feel like maybe today is the most beautiful day in the world.

Written by Marisol Graciela

Monday, January 28, 2013

Darkness meets Light


Darkness.

The bleakness haunts me.
The ache.
Oh the utter ache.
My breath begins to race and my heart doesn’t break…
Because it is already broken.
My eyes begin to swell.
I instinctively fight it.
I try to remember that I am in the letting go.
Tears fall down my cheeks, perfectly down the creases that seems to have to be created by them.
I open my eyes.
I see light.
I feel like a pink pair of socks; happy and warm.
I smile.
The dark and the light have met.
They became one.



I am.

Written by Marisol Graciela